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I will not be able to die until I have accepted that there is no afterlife. I don’t think that this will happen anytime soon. I know subconsciously that there is no afterlife, but I can’t grasp that concept. I am too smitten with this concept of life. I enjoy having senses and emotions. I love emotions so much.
Until then, I’ll enjoy the view. I’m not invincible, but I need to live a worthwhile, action-packed life while I’m young.
And whenever I have things to write about, I can’t. When I’m stuck at my computer, I can. Fuck. So I don’t tell you anything, ever.
Well, for one thing, I feel fairly empty right now. It is difficult moving on. I’m so fucking tired right now. All I can do is just keep taking in music, day and night–and I can never get enough French. Maybe someday, I’ll be able to do something with it, like introduce someone to a favourite song or whatever. That would fulfill my life. That is my life aspiration.
This is going to be another one of those points in my life where I am upset because I feel unloved. I am fully aware that I do not need a boyfriend to sustain me, but having loving support from someone you love in a romantic manner never hurt. It just fucking sucks being in a position where that n’est pas possible. I only used French right there because I’m listening to “Quelqu’un m’a dit” by Carla Bruni.
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